HOLD THE PHONE:
This recipe is to DIE for. I suggest you go make it. And eat as much as you can possibly justify. Or just forget about the justifying part and GO FOR IT.
Sit and Stay Awhile Apple Crisp
I made it for my husby because it's our 2.5 year anniversary today! Hooray!
making your wednesday night so much sweeter
Tuesday, August 30, 2011
Sometimes it's good to take a step back and assess where you are in life. It's humbling to take a moment and evaluate the attitudes you've developed, scrutinize the habits you've picked up, acknowledge your own shortcomings and apathy. Sometimes you just need to ask yourself, "how did I get here?"
If you let it, life can get away from you. You can get caught up in the day-to-day routine, keeping up with the times, and living according to other people's expectations of you. These things don't always lead us to bad places, but I think it's a smart thing to make sure you know where these things are, in fact, leading you. As Christians, we need to constantly be surrendering our lives to God's sovereign will. This takes brutal honesty and, oftentimes, the death of a dream or two.
Joey and I are taking time to evaluate where we are. Life's been motoring on full speed ever since we got married (two and a half years ago tomorrow!). At times it's felt like we've been on a lazy walk through the countryside, and at others like we're on a freight train hurtling on, heedless of what lies outside. Now that the craziness of summer camp has abated, it's like the train has come to a screeching halt and dropped us off in the middle of nowhere.
So, here we are. Re-evaluating. Getting our bearings. Finding out which direction is Up.
If you let it, life can get away from you. You can get caught up in the day-to-day routine, keeping up with the times, and living according to other people's expectations of you. These things don't always lead us to bad places, but I think it's a smart thing to make sure you know where these things are, in fact, leading you. As Christians, we need to constantly be surrendering our lives to God's sovereign will. This takes brutal honesty and, oftentimes, the death of a dream or two.
Joey and I are taking time to evaluate where we are. Life's been motoring on full speed ever since we got married (two and a half years ago tomorrow!). At times it's felt like we've been on a lazy walk through the countryside, and at others like we're on a freight train hurtling on, heedless of what lies outside. Now that the craziness of summer camp has abated, it's like the train has come to a screeching halt and dropped us off in the middle of nowhere.
So, here we are. Re-evaluating. Getting our bearings. Finding out which direction is Up.
Thursday, August 25, 2011
It's late*, but I just wanted to give a little update:
My midwife took a look at the cracks I mentioned in the last post and promptly got me a prescription that will (hopefully) heal me in time. For now I'm restricted to feeding Benjamin on one side. Even though it feels like I don't have enough milk, I know my body will provide it. For a day it will mean feedings are long and frequent, but I'm sure I'll adjust. I am SO thankful for this intervention and pray that it will work!
I also found out that Benjamin gained a FULL POUND in a week. That is absolutely awesome! Even though breastfeeding has been excruciating, leading me to tears almost every time he latches on, I have been caring for him exactly as he needs. Praise God!
This WILL get better. I know it will.
*I don't even remember when I last thought quarter to 10 in the evening was late. Man, I'm getting old. ;)
My midwife took a look at the cracks I mentioned in the last post and promptly got me a prescription that will (hopefully) heal me in time. For now I'm restricted to feeding Benjamin on one side. Even though it feels like I don't have enough milk, I know my body will provide it. For a day it will mean feedings are long and frequent, but I'm sure I'll adjust. I am SO thankful for this intervention and pray that it will work!
I also found out that Benjamin gained a FULL POUND in a week. That is absolutely awesome! Even though breastfeeding has been excruciating, leading me to tears almost every time he latches on, I have been caring for him exactly as he needs. Praise God!
This WILL get better. I know it will.
*I don't even remember when I last thought quarter to 10 in the evening was late. Man, I'm getting old. ;)
in which I am rather raw
Remember what I said yesterday about feeling like I'm months ahead of myself? Yeah.
NO. I am not.
I had two good days, but I need to be honest and not pretend I have everything together. The truth is that breastfeeding is still the hardest thing I've ever had to do. It is excruciating to feed Benjamin when I have gaping WOUNDS on the important parts - not just cracks. And, no matter what I try, they won't heal. Pumping and nursing shields do nothing to help, either. I am certain Judah feels neglected because of the time I spend nursing Benjamin, and I'm also certain it can't be pleasant to taste blood in one's breast milk.
I went for a walk yesterday, and it really did feel good to get out of the house. Granted, it was still stressful to be toting around two children, but at least it was a change in scenery. I know people at camp wonder why they are only seeing Benjamin for the first time at three weeks old. But, what do you know? Having an 18 month old and a newborn is hard!
Today I'm getting a mini-break and taking Benjamin into the city for a check-up. Judah will be with his Nana, and I will at least get a long stretch of road to think and pray. Hopefully I'll also get some help from my midwife. At this rate, I don't know how I can keep this up much longer (the breastfeeding, that is).
I don't want anyone to read this blog and think I'm trying to hide the reality of life. It's fun to post the happy things that happen day to day, but sometimes you just need to let your hair down and give the facade a break.
NO. I am not.
I had two good days, but I need to be honest and not pretend I have everything together. The truth is that breastfeeding is still the hardest thing I've ever had to do. It is excruciating to feed Benjamin when I have gaping WOUNDS on the important parts - not just cracks. And, no matter what I try, they won't heal. Pumping and nursing shields do nothing to help, either. I am certain Judah feels neglected because of the time I spend nursing Benjamin, and I'm also certain it can't be pleasant to taste blood in one's breast milk.
I went for a walk yesterday, and it really did feel good to get out of the house. Granted, it was still stressful to be toting around two children, but at least it was a change in scenery. I know people at camp wonder why they are only seeing Benjamin for the first time at three weeks old. But, what do you know? Having an 18 month old and a newborn is hard!
Today I'm getting a mini-break and taking Benjamin into the city for a check-up. Judah will be with his Nana, and I will at least get a long stretch of road to think and pray. Hopefully I'll also get some help from my midwife. At this rate, I don't know how I can keep this up much longer (the breastfeeding, that is).
I don't want anyone to read this blog and think I'm trying to hide the reality of life. It's fun to post the happy things that happen day to day, but sometimes you just need to let your hair down and give the facade a break.
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