to my three-month-old

Dear Baby,

It’s so hard to believe that merely three months ago you came into this world.  All of a sudden this little being that I had gotten to know inside of me over nine months was here for all to see.  I traded our special relationship for one of a completely different sort.  I now get to know you—your personality, your likes and dislikes, and your fears.  I get to be your mommy.

On that day you became known as Judah Adriel, a name that means, “praise the LORD, He is salvation.” Oh, how I love your name.  Not a day has gone by without me thanking God for you.  He gave you to me to teach me ever so much more about His character.  You are a picture of God’s grace to me, little one.

Being a new parent is terrifying and extremely hard—not because you make it so, but because of me.  I am terrified of leading you in the wrong direction, terrified of my imperfect example.  It’s hard because I am hopelessly flawed.  I am incapable of showing you the love you so desperately need. 

So, Baby, I point you to Christ.  I depend on His strength and His love to provide all of your needs.  He is really the one fathering you, not your daddy and mommy.  Run to Him, Baby.  He will never fail.

I love you so much, Baby.

Love,
Mommy