Here is a poem that I wrote about a year ago. It is a poem of questioning, but not necessarily of doubt. I hope it means something to you, and maybe you'll even be able to enlighten me on what it means. Enjoy!

Would You

If these hands could paint a picture...
Would you look at it?
If these eyes could shut out the world...
Would you see them?
If these feet could run for miles...
Would you wait?
If this voice could sing a love song...
Would you hear it?
If this heart was bruised and wounded...
Would you heal it?
If these ears could hear the alarm...
Would you sound it?
If this mouth could speak your words...
Would you grant them?
If these knees wouldn’t bend before you
Would you break them?
If this mind could not remember...
Would you remind it?
If this soul was dry and thirsty...
Would you water it?
If this life was empty and wasted...
Would you fill it?

A Savior's Love

There is something so precious, so mysterious about the love of Christ. Something that goes beyond the areas of understanding, calls to a part much deeper than the soul. It consumes, protects, and wipes all notions of doubt from our little minds. It's greater than faith, greater than hope. And still I hear it calling... deeper... deeper. Come to me. Find peace. Find rest for your soul. Come to me...

Those words may forever ring in my head, an endless cycle that never becomes old. It's always fresh, always a mystery. How can I know this love? How can I rest at ease if I have not explored every corner, every fold of this Majesty?

It's a journey that my flesh does not want to take. After all, I'm human, and what human can let a mystery lie unsolved? You see it in our world. TV shows of investigation, conclusion, justice. Scientists making leaps and bounds in yet another unexplored aspect of life. Information chanels, biographies, the news. We need to know. And I think that knowledge is our downfall.

But this isn't about us. This can never be about us. Love is about Christ. Love is Christ. And, this mystery, beautiful and foreign, is one that will never be solved until we bow before the throne of Christ. Until that day, I will seek to know more of this mystery as Christ has sought for me.

The Grad Soap Opera

Well, this is my first attempt at blogging, and I don't know how else to start other than to just start talking about my life. So, without further delaying, here I go...

It's already the end of February, and I'm starting to sense an intense case of Grad fever coming across my school. My friend Joey is in pursuit of his perfect grad escort, and my best friend Kristy is going shopping on saturday to find the perfect dress to wear with her boyfriend.

Although I understand the excitement that comes with finishing school, I haven't felt much of this fever myself as I am fairly new to the school. Yes, I have a lot of friends at MCI, but it seems that Grad is specially reserved for those that have gone to school together for many years. So, not complaining, I'm content to enjoy the Grad from the sidelines, not actually participating, but appreciating it nonetheless.

Imagine my surprise when I found out that Kristy's brother was thinking of asking me to his grad as his escort. I've always appreciated Derek and his quiet demenor (which is in stark contrast to Kristy's character) and was absolutely shocked (and a little flattered) to hear this.
And so I anxiously awaited Derek's little question...

We had youth tonight, and it was a really fun time. Derek and Kristy were there, and somehow I didn't actually think I would be asked "the question" in the near future. But just as everyone was getting their coats on and warming up their cars, he asked me. "Do you want to go to prom with me?"

Those are very special words. I can honestly say that you can imagine them a thousand times, but they never seem the same as when they are actually said. And I, of course, said yes right away.

Now that could be a nice little story with nice little feelings, but the punch line is coming up. After I had said yes, Derek said, "It's okay because I have other options." Isn't that hysterical? Coming from anyone else, I might be offended. But I know that Derek is really shy and he would never mean to offend. I think he just said that so he knew I wasn't pressured into anything. But it's still funny :) .

Now, there's something that should be understood here. I do currently have a boyfriend, but my anticipation is not to be confused with a silly crush. I'm just going as a friend with Derek, nothing more.

When I think about it, it is so exciting. My best friend is going to grad with her boyfriend, and I am going with her brother. In some ways, grad is a soap opera!