because
a) she's cute
b) she's going to be one in 1.5 weeks
c) she's still not quick enough to escape the camera
d) she's cute

to be at peace

I don't know how to best describe the last two weeks except by two words: God's grace.

Amidst the endless sibling squabbles, I have kept my temper. While enduring epic Benjamin tantrums, I have remained calm. While disciplining my eldest, I have been consistent and fair. And, with my exceptionally needy little girl, I have been able to establish routine.

Being a mama has been such an incredibly difficult task lately. I struggle with controlling my anger when the day refuses to go according to my plans. I have felt lost when it comes to communicating with my veeeery strong willed 2 3/4 year old. My attempts to correct my children usually end up with one or both parties completely exhausted and exasperated.

But, this week. This week, God's peace has been showered upon me. This week, I have rediscovered my love for motherhood, for my children. 

This week, God has taught me so much. And it's not just because it's been a "good" week. It's not just because we've made strides forward in some very key areas (read: potty training). I know myself. I know my kids. I know that I am a sinner (saved by grace) and that any good thing that seems to come from me is, in fact, NOT from me. 

Who knows? This next week may be AWFUL in human terms. All I know is that I trust the God that sends both the sunshine and rain. I will hold fast to His grace, dig deep into His word, and ride out the storm. Right now, though, I am praising Him for this sunshiny week of peace.